Someday I'll change the world

Well here I am on a lovely Thursday night, not being a typical college student. I don't go out to parties and live that scene up. Instead I go to school all day, run back to my apartment, change, rush off to work, come home and do homework all night. I'm not into partying and the whole not remembering what happened the next day thing. Besides, I already have way too much fun with my roommate, and we are completely sober (I have the snap chat videos to prove it). My morals and values are too important to me to compromise them, especially for some fun that only lasts for a short period of time, and then freaking out the next day when I wake up next to some stranger...that is not appealing to me at all. With all that said, it has been so extremely hard going from a small private baptist college, to a big ole public university. It was an eye opener and I am still adjusting to it.

I walk to class each day and have to walk by fraternity tents, and I see the way they gawk at girls like they are pieces of meat. For two days now I have been chased down by fraternity guys when I walk by, and when they talk to me I just use sign language. Not really, that would be pretty funny though. I just smile and politely say I'm late to a class to get rid of them. No, I am not boasting about "all the guys I'm getting," they do this to literally every girl that walks by. And, you should not be flattered when a guy gawks at you the same way he would at a really nice car. A man after God's own heart is a man after my heart. I do however believe that I am at UTSA for a reason and I happen to already know that reason. Everyone always says God works in mysterious ways, and my life is a good example. I have always said to myself that I am not going back to San Antonio, and how big universities aren't for me...well that was a huge mistake, and God heard me loud and clear.

God closed the door at ETBU, and shoved me in full speed towards UTSA, and honestly I could not be more happy. You see as Christians we are called to ministry and to be the light. That does not mean that we have to go to foreign countries to do that. "Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit." -Matthew 28:19 Yes, the verse says all nations, but the U.S. is in spiritual warfare right now as we speak. They aren't allowing prayer, or any talk of religion for that matter, if it has anything to do with Christianity, in schools at all anymore. Why is us talking about God and how He saves so bad? The only people that put up a fight against Christianity are the ones that feel the most convicted. I have numerous professors that talk badly about Christians, and many of my friends from Chi Alpha have professors that are the exact same way. It does not make any sense for them to be so against it, and constantly bringing it up, if they did not feel so guilty on the inside.

When I look around at the students I see around campus or in my classes, and I listen to what they are talking about, I want to put ear muffs on. Now I know, judging is not right, and I have no place to judge. But, no one wants to hear how all you want to do is get hammered because the guy that liked your selfie today slept with your best friend, and now you two can't get married anymore. Or how it's your 21st birthday this weekend and you don't wanna remember anything that happens. "Your eye is the lamp of your body. When your eyes are healthy, your whole body also is full of light. But when they are unhealthy, your body is also full of darkness." -Luke 11:34 "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies." -1 Corinthians 6:19-20 I found so many versus pertaining to the evil ways of the world, God wants nothing but the best for us, why is that so hard to understand and follow? He is our heavenly Father, trying to protect us from all self destruction we do on a daily basis. People are so consumed with earthly things, and what feels good at the moment. But, what they do not realize is how destructive it will be down the road. 

I am no means perfect or anywhere close to perfect. I have made more mistakes than I can count on one hand, but what is so wonderful is that my God loves me the same. I am perfect in His eyes, and He cares so much for me that He sent His only son to be hated by the world and die on a cross for me. Just thinking about that boggles my mind. "Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation." -Isaiah 12:2 It really is not that hard being a Christian, no we do not have it easy, but we do have a heavenly Father that listens to us whenever and we can cast out burdens on Him. I often wonder how people who don't believe deal with stress and worry. Who do they tell? How do they solve problems? How do they explain why they are here? Do they not know there is someone holding them in His hands, wanting so badly to take all their struggles away, and welcome them with arms wide open? I find great joy in telling people about how far I've come, and how amazing and mighty my God is. How I would not be here today if it were not for God. I would not be able to face the day if I did not know that no matter what God will be right by my side. I hope that they will want to know more, and that they will accept Him into their heart. It is so peaceful knowing that God will always provide and take care of me. No, I don't always remember that, but when I see how everything worked out I feel dumb and  say, "You were right once again God, I need to just trust you." 

I hope that one day I can travel and do mission work, not go live in another country, but go visit often for months at a time. To go and set up VBS for kids and help build wells and homes for them. But, I am doing it one step at a time, starting here at UTSA. Someday I will change the world, with Gods help.