SOS: My Bucket of Faith Sprung a Leak

As I sit here and try to think of how I want to start this blog, I can't help but sing these lyrics repeatedly in my head; "Our Savior is for us, His love is victorious, revival is forming in His name." God never reminds us of all the times we have failed, messed up, or stumbled in life. I can't speak for everyone, but I know when I look back my path looks like a drunken baby fawn learning to walk. I'm not perfect, I don't claim to be, and I hate to break it to you but neither are you. We weren't made to be perfect. If we were, then there would be no need for God. There's that saying printed on every journal, t-shirt, and in almost every Christian song, "Jesus is all you need." But what most people don't get out of it, is that you can't say that unless He is all that you have. There's only room for one in your heart. You can't say you give it all for Him, but then try and keep things grasped in you hand. God gets it all, or you lose it all. There's no dividing your time or negotiation with God. We have to give it all, because He gave it all, He held nothing back. Man, when you think about it that way, it's kind of like watching your ice cream fall off your ice cream cone. Christians talk an awful lot about the cross, but never get on it. We develop selective amnesia, only wanting to remember all the bad things that have happened, and all the trials we went through. I'm a master, head chairman, CEO, president, and founder of this technique. I am always quick to get frustrated or angered when something bad happens or I don't get my way. I tend to have mental one-sided conversations with God, saying, "If you really cared my mom would still be here," "If you loved me then why did I come so close to dying,"Why do I have to have the same genetic mutation that took my mom," and my personal favorite, "Why me." I'm so quick to name all the bad things that I've been through, in fact I could name ten right now, probably more, off the top of my head that happened just this past week. We're so focused on all the hard and negative times, that we can't even remember any of the good times. That's why it's so important to write down all the blessings God has given you. When you do that, it really opens your eyes, and puts things into perspective for you. It shows you that, no matter what, God has been right by your side for everything. All growing up I watched my mom struggle to make ends meet, and how we never got to splurge or have nice things. I don't think about how I always had food in my stomach, clothes on my back, and a roof over my head. How friends from church would bring us meals each week, and how my moms best friend gave us a Christmas one year because we had no money. Instead of always seeing bad and asking why, try not complaining, try asking how God plans to use this later on, or try just being content with what you have. When you realize how good you have it, you start to cherish every little blessing that God sends your way, and stop seeing only negativity.